Have you ever felt like the very universe wanted you gone?

No. The universe doesn't care about us as individuals. Only humans care. It is also illogical to believe in a god of intention and no action. If one is to believe in god and the supreme power of god, one must inevitably accept things as they are as being all part of the plan. If god wanted things to be different, they would be different. Otherwise god is not all-powerful, doesn't care, or simply doesn't exist.